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BACK TO THE BASICS

WEEK TWO TITUS PROJECT

It's week 2 and I'm already fading and getting caught up in the business of works.  Adapting to this accelerated rhythm of learning has caused me to avoid the daily responsibilities of seeking God's face.  A woman I met at church, a couple weeks ago, randomly said to me, "When the Father is drawing you into new places in life, refrain from rebelling against him and turning back to your old ways of youth."  She shared this with me one day before Titus project started, so I had no idea what she was talking about because I was still eager to start.  Fast forward a week and half into Titus, I soon realized that it was not random, it was the Lord speaking to me about the rebellion that was in my life. Something was not right, and I could not figure out why.


Tamsui, Taiwan
Photo Credit: Emilyn Wong


This week I decided to do a three day water fast because I could feel that I was not desperate for Jesus the way I was in my previous seasons. My fleshy love tank was being filled with the family God brought to me in my season of SBS. It was crazy to think that the love from the people around me was enough and I was not hungry for God's love for me. It frightened me how easy it is to rely on relationships with others around me and survive off of their love and attention instead of the love in needed from the Father.

During my fast, God revealed to me the root of my rebellion and resistance in preparing my teachings. It was the fear of failing, I was pridefully worried about what others would think about my performance during my practice teachings. I thought I had already surrendered myself to the Lord? I thought that I was already rooted and grounded in the Word of God? I'm learning that it is only in my daily devotion where I can abide in Christ.  It was my lack of daily intimacy with the Father that led me a strayed from the fundamental truths of my identity in Christ. I have come back to the realization that God has given me everything that I already need in Christ Jesus.

In Christ he has given me:
    Courage for my fear of man
    Holiness for my lawlessness.
    Commitment for my double mindedness.

How could I believe the lies of the enemy when God has called me to be first and foremost His Daughter? I’m learning that as a teacher, I’m still learning! It does not excuse me from the fundamental essentials in following Christ.


He’s taking me back to the basics.


Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name.Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread,and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Matthew 6:9-13

GIVE US
DAILY BREAD


3/16/2018