There is probably a million different things I’m trying to remember while I’m here spending time with my family. It hasn’t been easy visiting and transitioning into my old family habits and from the ways of the Christ centered community I was living in Taiwan. I’m coming into the realization that I was striving in my identity, striving in walking out in ever timeless truth I learned this past year. It was to a point where my mind was racing with God’s commandments, promises and scripture to fight against any lie or opposition that would come my way.


Tumon, Guam


Weary and tired of reciting scripture, I woke up one morning and the Lord gave me a revelation of knowing him. Do I really know you God? Do I intimately know God the way that he desires? As I read through my daily devotional, it hit me that nothing can compare to knowing him. Because when I know him my spirit is at rest and my soul is at peace. A peace and security that only God can give me. Knowing God takes me into his kingdom of righteousness, where his righteousness flows through Christ and into me. To be still and know that He is God. In the stillness is where I can find you Lord, to know you and love like you do.

Draw my love near to you Lord.

What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.